Ideal style can differ from the real one.

Everyone has his/her own ideal for the opposite sex.
When someone ask me what the ideal type to me is, I used to say, "Well....I don't know. Someone who loves me?"
However once I found such a vague point of view does not help me meet someone who loves me. I thought it is necessary for me to set the concrete ideal style!! So I made up list. ( There might be few people who fit to my list, I know. He )
I know only a guy who is similar to the ideal, but it is not likely for me to love him. Of course I like him. He is kind, smart, diligent, and good looking! It weird that ideal style could be differnt from the real man, isn't it. What a tricky girl!

Looking for some excitement

I went clubbing last weekend. I danced with my friends from 12:00 am to 6 am.
Wow....Isn't it cool? And..I met a guy. He was kind andd sweet. I and he hang out all weekends, but he went to states where is his home. Isn't it cooler? The relationship without stupidity and weeping. haha!
I don't mean such an instant relationship is desirable. I have forgotten how people come to have attachment to each other since I broke up with my ex-boy friend. I even tried to forget and deny how to love and how to intimate two people who has other sex. I have lived a dull life for 3 years. I fouund something exciting from my life.
This club thing is trifle, but it was the thilled excitements of my dull life.
This week is the last week before I leave my office for a month. I will go student teaching to a public highshcool so I decided to temporarily rest from my office. I wish this change would strike on me for better situatioin.

An Egg Is An Egg

An egg is an egg
Until it hatches.
And then it is a chick.
A branch is a branch
Until it breaks.
And then it is a stick.
Nothing stays the same.
Everything can change.
A seed is a seed
Until it is sown.
And then it is a flower.
A block is a block
Until there are many.
And then they become a tower.
Nothing stays the same.
Everything can change.
Water is water
Until it is brewed.
And then it becomes tea.
You are you
Until I come.
And then you became “we.“
Nothing stays the same.
Everything can change.
The yard is green
Until it snows.
And then it becomes white.
Day is dayUntil sunset.
And then it is night.
Nothing stays the same.
Everything can change.
This baby was a baby
Until he grew.
And now he is a boy.
But you can always be a baby.
You will always be my baby….

(from Mcgrawhill text book for the first graders in U.S.A)
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Closer

"Closer"

What does it mean?
I am confused the meaning of "Closer."

Meaning #1
'Close' means intimacy when it used as a adjective.
'Closer' is intimate people like a lover or friends?

Meaning #2
'Close' means shutting when it used as a verb.
'Closer' indicate a people who shut their mind from others?


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Do you believe in love?

The lover was a liar? Where is the truth about feeling?
One's feeling is so changable and dynamic that love that is a sort of feeling is varible as well.

Love is a powerful, which makes people drive crazy and bold but love can be changed much.
If someone falls in love at first impression, the love can be strong more than any other ones.
But can the kind of love be called 'love?'


I can't see.
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The Blowers Daughter

"The Blowers Daughter"

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on meMost of the time
And so it isThe shorter story
No love, no gloryNo hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...My mind...my mind...'Til I find somebody new

Failed

The attempt that living apart from my family was failed.
The main reason is the lack of money. It would cost much money than I expected.

First I have to pay rent.
Second I have to buy lab top computer.

Ahh....Money.. is always the big problem!!!

Therefore the plan was postponed to May.

News> I will do practical teaching in the public school in April, which is the part of training in my school. ( I am majoring in English Education.) So I will leave my job for a month. I am happy to meet new surroundings and challenge. I want something new!