Bad Guy Fever

Whenever I watch a movie where a girl is into a bad guy, I would say, "She is crazy. She does not know how to respect herself!"

Poor girls, I am sorry that I have a bad guy fever too. I cannot help it.

I have a guy. I have known him for seven years. SEVEN YEARS!!!!!!
We had dates six years ago. Now we just talk on messenger or send text messages to each other.
I feel I have a crush on him. Sometimes I think he could be my Mr. Right. But it's funny how I can have such a nonsense because I don't see him in reality and we are not serious at all. Just killing time on the internet by talking silly things.

Actually there are some reasons that made me feel this way.
1. It is really fun to talk him. We talk about silly things but some of the things are very concerned about our real life. He does not talk too much but he is so sensible that he can catch my feelings very well. It's like a pingpong match. I toss a subject and he send it back to me in a jolly, balanced way.

2. He is not gay.

3. He adores me like a little sister. (I hate this part!) But sometimes I feel different, which makes me suspicious of his position about how he likes me.

4. I am sure he likes me but not sure if it is a kind of chemistry. That's the problem. I cannot be sure 100% about his attitude towards me. It is vague, tickling, or awkward somtimes.

5. So I think he is a bad guy. He might have many girls around him. He is tall, intelligent, making money with a secured job.

6. Therfore I cannot ask for him a date. I don't want to date with a bad guy. I don't want to play a game like that.

7. He wants to see me sometime. He never tells me exact time, just saying, "See you soon. I have to hang out in this winter."

HE IS BAD! BAD BAD BAD!